sometimes we dreaming about someone who never care about us.. sometimes we afraid about many things in our life.. but we never see what absolutely hidden behind all of these..
I always afraid about die..
When am I die?
Who will cry when i’m die?
How I die?
Who will smile because i’m die?
Will he cry when i’m die?
Will many people who I usualy call as friend cry when i’m die?
and many other questions…
I never thought that I really have a friend –just a friend not friends– I don’t know why but I always feel lonely. I always try to feel thankful to my lovely God, but I always feel empty. I try to ignore it, it try to forget it, but I can’t! Eventhough I’m chatting or laughing with many people who usualy I call as friend, but I still feel empty inside.
Maybe no one cares about it, no one cares about what I feel, but I do. This is what I feel, this is what I thought everytime! How can I ignore it?!
I believe that God always love me and He always take care of me, but He’s too kind for me. I’m not a good child. I’m not a wise person. I’m not a religious girl, I’m going to church not every Sunday, Christmas, and Easter. I pray to Him with sleepy mind. Everytime I’m in church I feel sleepy, I almost never hear what the priest said. He’s so kind for me and I don’t know why but I feel thankful for it.
Life never goes like we want.. but we choose the way for our life to stay alive..
-Whitecoppy-
